rough patch

so, bf and i have definitely hit a rough patch. it's not that we aren't getting along at the moment...we are. but we have had some serious discussions in the last couple of days. tonight we got onto the topic of his cheating. not in an accusatory way, but i told him that i am probably going to go to counseling. because seriously people, it has WRECKED my self esteem. there is a lot i have been able to get past, but there is some i think i need help with. because i want to make us work, for all the good stuff we have. and we do have a lot of good stuff.

the bf has gone to counseling before himself, and was mocking it a bit. saying the counselor would tell me to "rid myself of the baggage, blah blah blah..." meaning ridding myself of him. whatever.

anyway, i was taking serious issue with the fact that he doesn't think what he did was actually cheating. he said it doesn't count because "his heart wasn't in it." and "it wasn't like he went out looking to cheat." lame. totally lame. i don't think i need to waste time telling you why these are both extremely lame excuses. so i won't.

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