nothing but blue skies

today was another fabulous day for me and the bf. we have actually gone two whole days without incident! and i have had none of my weird paranoia/panic attacks. i think it really, really helped for us to have that chat the other night. tomorrow night is the big "party" for a couple of the people who were "let go". we are still trying to decide whether we are going. actually, i am leaving it all up to the bf. he confessed last night that he really doesn't want to go if "she" is going to be there too. that he would feel really uncomfortable. we may just go for 15 minutes or we may not go at all. we'll see. either way i think i'll be fine.