weary

on nights like this, i miss you, my dear old blog. sitting here alone in the dark, crying over the state of life and so wanting to pour my heart out. my new blog is too public for me to do that.

i know this feeling of being alone will pass, or at least the severity of it will. i am lonely but yet i don't want to be around anyone, don't even want to talk to anyone, really.

maybe i just need to sit here and cry. let it all out and get rid of it. i can't afford for this to take me over. right now i am just so tired, and feeling hopeless, and not sure where to go next. it's funny how even at 31 i can lose my confidence and lose my way...reduced to a child yet again.

i know, this too shall pass, but right now it is piercing my heart, and it really hurts.